I do need to get back to doing my CBT but for whatever reason today hopeful of starting I just could not get into it. A few years ago when we had a working printer I had the foresight to print off book one of four. It's convenient. Nothing needs charged, no glare and I can read it anywhere. Not that it's much of a hassle to read it other ways. The pdf books are on my phone and my Kindle. Aside from that I also have a condensed version of all four books in small book format I keep in my travel bag.
I just could not get into though today. Its no surprise really given I can't seem to get into general reading at the moment. I sit with it in front of me and cannot seem to keep my attention on the words. It's like a drunk trying to walk a tightrope. My wind wanders right now on to other things. Not sure if the fact I am experiencing so little anxiety is a factor too. I am not pushing myself enough to experience panic and without that panic the desire to overcome it is less. It is possibly a sign I need to start pushing my walks again first just like I need to do before getting in a car again and also trying public transport.
My experience tells me in my own situation I need both walks and CBT to deal with the agoraphobia. I need both so it's important I get started soon. It won't be long before the DWP are landing through my letterbox again. I really do need to get on this.
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