Something to remember. Eight Fifty. I'm never out at that time. Well I did earlier in the year to do the drives to school but not for a walk. Not for a walk to school. But I did this week. I went with my family towards the school expecting to push myself to get a quarter of the way there at best and suffer for that a few hours after. But I got halfway and then that was more than enough. It was fine. I hope to do it more, maybe even push further. My wife had forgotten I was there. Its a start. It means little in the scheme of things. But something for me to remember. Something for the blog. An achievement. A pat of the back. I am trying.
But I only did that walk one time. Maybe next week. The day after that I went to my wife's work and had a fantastic big panic attack. Was going to provide a photo but there was nothing to see. And that is the things. There are times I want to talk about stuff but can't provide a photo to go with it. No one to capture me running away. Nothing really to see as its all internal. I had walked the long way down to her work with the boy, sat in the car (had my own keys), waited, waited some more, tried calling her, no answer and that was enough to make me panic. I actually contemplated scaling a wall with the boy at one point as it was the shortest route from A to B. I was halfway across the car park when she appeared. Not stopping I sent the boy in her direction and fled home on foot like an idiot. She of course got home before me.
Above is me bringing up the rear. Halfway down that path is a crossroads which you may be able to see. That is halfway. That is far as I have got. Note the way my wife is walking. Its not because she is a loon but because she started off the year with discomfort in her knee, got an operation off an NHS surgeon with a rusty saw and now is in constant pain with a limp to match. Bloody great. And they will do nothing about it, say they can do nothing. They feed her painkillers but are now wanting to give her pain management as an alternative. Bastards! Really. That is not right. She should see a lawyer I think.
Its not just panic that have curbed my walks but the weather. Don't get me wrong I love walking in the rain. Don't mind the wind too much. But when its rain, wind and freezing its no fun. Not weather for getting the wee unwaterproof camera out. Lots of spoiled photos and not much to take anyway.
