Oh yes, I do look like a scruff but that will be sorted soon I can assure you. Its going to be my first attempt at self haircutting and may well end in disaster but I have hats for that. Out and about. A rare occurrence captured. I am pushing, really I am pushing hard. Pushing hard to free myself from the situation I find myself in. I am getting it all ways at the moment and the fact that I am is testament to my complacency since this started and in the last 18 months at least.
The idea was for this next post to be filled with photos with my new camera. Unfortunately I have used it rarely. An expensive ornament at the moment but I hope that will change this week. Its the Easter holidays and the family as always are leaving and in that time I hope to get more familiar with the camera. Here I was out with my oldest daughter which is unusual nowadays but used to be a regular occurrence. I was letting her take photos of things with the old compact and trying to teach her along the way. And also, of course, taking lots of pics of her as she found new situations to be photographed in. Then a thought. I am never pictured out. I think there is one from 2 years ago and I do get out. So in a spur of the moment the above.
As I said I am trying hard. Very hard. I feel like its last chance saloon. I am putting every effort into getting myself righted as it were. Trying to find as many glimmers of hope that I can to keep me going. Just sick of where I am and missing where I want to be. Just keep pushing on. At some point I will meet that point where it will either make or break me for a period. That is where I run headlong too.
